Twenty Seven

The year of being at 27 is finally here. I can honestly say that this past year I learned a lot about myself. I had to be broken and sometimes that’s how life is but I picked up all the pieces and put that shit together. I love myself so much that I can walk out of a fitting room and have people stare at me and look at myself in the mirror and I’m so proud of the person that I have become. Emotionally, physically, and mentally I have grown and I’m so proud of my progress. I said I wanted to lose 50 pounds by my birthday and I lost 51. I set goals for myself and I’ve been reaching them. I have new clients, I have the best fucking friends that I could ever ask for, the relationship with my family is so much better, I am not stressed financially anymore, and I am a happy person now and there’s no pretending in it. I am genuinely happy and no one can take that from me because I’ve created it for myself. I started this weight-loss journey doubting myself a little and now I have been vegan since August and I plan on being Vegan for the rest of my weight loss journey. I give myself another year and a half to lose 100 pounds more and I’m going to reach that goal. Sometimes we take ourselves for granted and forget to take care of ourselves. Sometimes we drift apart from the man upstairs and in the end he really does answer all of our prayers. Once you remove toxic people from your life and negative thoughts from your head about yourself, and you just go for what you want and believe in,Β then anything can happen. The biggest thing that I can say that I am so passionate about is self love. I talk about it nonstop and constantly because in order for you to except who you are and want to change your life you need to be able to love yourself above anyone else and under no circumstances. Thank you to everyone who wished me a early happy birthday and those who commented on my recent Instagram posts. Lately there have been some people who have been very negative about this journey and either they’re not happy with their lives or they have some type of problem but whatever the case may be, you guys have came through and made me feel excited to still be on this journey. I know I post a lot of my social media of me always at the gym and it’s reassuring to know that I motivate people to go work out and to eat clean and I am always down to answer any questions that people have about the gym. I am still learning but it just makes me feel really happy that there are others out there that are going through what I’m going through or something similar that I can assist with. I’m so excited to have gone on this vacation because I really need this. I might not be where I want to be with my weight but I lost the weight I wanted to lose by my birthday and I feel good about that. Some things I’m going to take with me into another year older are to not be so hard on myself, to continue loving myself no matter what, to not get lazy and give up on any goals that I have set with work, school, and weight, to keep my relationship with my friends and to go to church more, not when it’s only convenient for me. I can say that if you go through something hard, you really will know who your true friends are. I am so blessed to have the people that I have in my life and I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world. I have big plans in store for me this year and I’m so glad that everything is finally falling into place. I am not perfect. I don’t aspire to be perfect. I just want to continue to be happy and love myself and like I said before there are days when I want to have a donut and one of the biggest factors into me losing weight was holding myself accountable for everything I ate. I wasn’t upset with it but if I knew if I ate that donut then I would have to run more and there’s nothing wrong with that. Holding yourself accountable for all aspects of your life is going to help you so much better in the long run. Anyways, I’m back from my trip! It was such a good time. I will be making a post on the whole trip and I vlogged it as well.
Until next time
Lots of love,
-Esswest

Here are some of my pictures from my trip that made turning 27 so so special.

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Can we just take a moment to see my progress? This really is a eye opener and I can’t wait to see another progress picture by summer. I set a new goal to lose another 50 by summer. Here’s to another 50!!!!!

 

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