There are 20 days left for 2017 and then it’s time for a new year of endless opportunities. I’ve had the shittiest year with trying to find and remind myself who the fuck I am. I lost myself the moment I let someone disrespect me and I didn’t know how to find me but everything that I was is no longer who I am. I am a strong, beautiful woman. I care about myself so much and really want the best. I’m onto another year of school next semester, I’m working on moving out, I have a ton of new goals that are in the works, my weight loss journey is still in full motion, and my overall happiness is a priority. I am human and I do make mistakes. There are still days and I REPEAT THERE ARE STILL DAYS when I find myself sad but I don’t let it consume me. I take a moment and cry if I need to and just let it be done. There are still moments when I will eat a bag of Hot Cheetos. I mean I work out six days a week and everyday I find myself getting stronger and more confident. The first half of this year was the worst. The second half has been a million times better because I’m better. I’ve changed and I’m so glad people can see that. I’m not going to say my personality has changed because I’m still a funny down to earth girl but just me as a person, I’ve grown.
I wanted to make this post about the people that have helped me these past six months and from the bottom of my heart I want to say thank you.
Thank you to my parents for just accepting me, letting me make my own decisions, and loving me extra hard. Thank you to my sister for being there always. Thank you to my brother who has consistently been with me to the gym. Even though I don’t need him there with me he still goes. Thank you to my friends for allowing me to open up and let me pour my heart and soul to you. I don’t want to name you all but I talk to you on a weekly basis. You know who y’all are. Thank you to everyone on my social media who takes time out of their day to let me know that I inspire you, I motivate you, or just the positivity and good vibes you send me while being on this weight loss journey. I get some negativity and that’s perfectly fine because calling me fat just doesn’t hurt me anymore. Thank you to my little loves for always making me feel better. Nothing better than catching up with them and seeing them do so good in school. Thank you to the man upstairs for answering my prayers.
2018 is going to be an amazing year and I’m excited to give it my all and keep growing.
Until next time
lots of love