Never regret a day in your life: good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worse days give you lessons, and best days give you memories.
Lately, I have been noticing more and more people talking about how they are journaling things that they’re grateful for, and that had me thinking about a blog post. Awhile back, when things were really falling apart for me, someone mentioned focusing on things that I am grateful for; showing more gratitude towards things and that if I started doing that, things would come full circle for me. I remember my jaw dropping to the ground and the light bulb feature going off in my head.
Of course, I think we are all grateful for things in our life but I think most of the times we stray from that path. It is so easy to get stuck in the mud of negativity that we forget to focus on the really important things that we should be grateful for. There are so many things that I KNOW I should be grateful for but I allow it to just fall to my feet with zero lookbacks. And if I am being totally transparent, I don’t think I have ever truly FOCUSED on gratitude like I have been lately.
Today’s gratitude; two things I’m grateful for:
My family may be dysfunctional sometimes but I wouldn’t trade them for any one in the whole entire world. Life can be so hard sometimes and I forget that I have my own family to turn and talk to and in the end they always make me feel 1000% better. My mom is always going above and beyond to make us happy. I feel like she didn’t have a lot growing up and she wants us to have the entire world. I don’t know when I’m going to be able to give her half of what anything she has given me but I know one day I will. My dad is such a hard worker and he has always provided for our family. He is the piece that puts us all together. He makes us laugh so hard all the time and he’s my first true love and no one will ever replace him. My sister is my best friend. I never thought I was ever going to be able to say that but she really is. Although she may still have a boyfriend and as long as he treats her like a queen that she is I’m totally fine with that. I know no one can come between us because we look the same lol. She inspires me and she’s my business partner so I know that she will always be there for me as well as me being there for her. Lastly, my brother is kind of my womb mate. We’re a year apart. Everyone thinks that we are twins and sometimes we catch each other saying the same sentence at the same time or thinking the same thing and saying it out loud. He may be very stubborn and he may have his own issues but at the end of the day I’m always going to love him to the moon and back.
I don’t really know how lucky I got with the group of friends that I currently have. Some people have gone in and out of my life and sometimes you just have to let it be and just let them be a memory. I still have strong bonds with friends from sixth grade, high school, and college– those “drop anything and everything to be there for you” types of friendships. I have made incredible friendships in my twenties Met one of my good friends in the last couple of years and she is amazing. These humans have seen me through my darkest hours, shady moments, lowest points and STILL manage to love me fully and completely. They shoot me straight and tell me if I’m being dramatic or help me see another side if I don’t allow myself to fully step out of the box. When I told them about some things I wasn’t too proud of what happened the past few months, they didn’t judge or leave me but wrapped their arms around me and gave me the love I needed at that moment. It’s hard to find friends who will TRULY stick by you when you’ve hit rock bottom and lost parts of yourself; to find friends who will help guide back to the path where you need and WANT to be on. These incredible humans, they’ve been there through my high points and cheered me one with loving hearts and big smiles. Even though I am so grateful to have these friends standing by me through my best moments; I’m even MORE grateful that they stick by me through the HARD gross times. I’m grateful that they see my heart, my truth.
I know it’s been a couple of days since I’ve blogged but since school is a priority, I have to make time to study, take my own notes, and all that jazz. I’m also 5000% committed to my gym. It’s been a week since I’ve been going to planet fitness and I have gotten over my fear of working out in an area with a bunch of people. That’s how I know I’m growing. I’m blossoming into this person that I love and no one can tell me shit. Today I burned 4000 calories. I got there at 9 AM and I left at 1 PM so I am very tired but I still have to shower and get ready for work. I know that I can eat and count my calories and still have burned way more than I consumed. I still want to go tonight but I shall see.
I hope everyone reads this blog and finds something to be grateful for. I’m going to turn this blog into a series of things that I’m grateful for every Friday so if you haven’t subscribed to my blog please do and I’ll love you forever and ever.
Until next time,
love always and forever